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fcuk 2009 . hello 2010!

Thursday, December 31, 2009 Thursday, December 31, 2009

happy birthday tawfiq paikia. lamer tk nampak kao. last nampak kao pun kat sentosa eh eh eh . meet soon . happy birthday once again eh matrep !

people , should i justsay im SINGLE ? i think i am. wahhhhh ! maybe i make a stupid decision , but he make me mad. i cant control my tears anymore. i cant control my anger anymore. im hurt. did he know ? he siding my family and hw about me ?? just leave me alone , im going to be better . takecare. ):

thnks to yaya , apit , apai , fydy , mel , dyeerah , ninicyner , myrakeai , amaliah , kiki , danial & more for cheering me up about my problem. i love yuu people. mwah mwah ! ):
im going to be m.i.a soon. miss me okay ? tata !
PS: COUNTDOWN TK KUWA. FCUK EVERYTHING AHKAY . MENDAK SIALL ! HAPPY NEW YEAR PEOPLE. FUCK 2009 & HELLO 2010 ! (;
sorry to those whu ask me out and i last minute cant . anw , chatted with nortyyx lala , rindu dher seyy. she ask me countdown kat ne , ako da tk leh kuwa. sedeh . ): i miss yuu bby ! kay bye!!

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heartbreaker.

Wednesday, December 30, 2009 Wednesday, December 30, 2009

TODAY IS BELLA KARTONIKA BIRTHDAY , HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAY ? ILOVEYOU!

yesterday im going to the a.m.k police station with haikal and dinie to take my statement about the andy case. after statement , i thought i could just walk off from that fcuking place and just slack at common green with both of them. but i was wrong. the I.O STEVEN say this to us "im going to lock you up and call ur parents to bail you guys okay." i was shocked. its nt my fault u fcuking busted.!! ferst tyme i went in to the lockup place. tak rase seramm uhh , ako taq buat pape pe. i call my mum to bail me up. mum was like angry. tapi ako tak uat pape siaa. i seat alone inside the lockup place. i sing some song by my own. mcm budak sangau siaaa liya. after i call my mum , i cried. tears strt rolling. haikal saw it while dinie kena bail alr with his father. i walk inside back and seat down.

this police officer say;
"why yuu steal?"
and i answered
"i never steal lahh !" (with a high tone)
he say;
"then why yuu are here ?"
i reply
"hw i knw. im there what . urgh ! fcuk. whatever lah . just leave me alone !"
and he walk off. stresss siaaa liyaaa. then theres one malay police came and give me food with tea.
he say "nahh."
i say "ahhh."
he say "apa ahh?"
i say "ahh . thnkyou."
he say "kay , bagus."

sial ! mcm anjing sak kao uat ako. tkmu kerana kao police , ako kena hormat kao uhh siaaa. that food i put a side. musibot sial ! i keep thinking that i wanna get out from this fcuking place. ako kat dalam lockup dah tk tahan , apa lagy org yang kat dalam jail kan? melalak agaknyer.!

after parents bail me , they put all the blames on me. i cry non stop. yesterday , today and maybe tmrw. i cry and cry. i just cant take it anymore. its not even my fault siaa ! i was there. its andy who take that bag ! why must me who kena ? why andy pok my name ? i hate it !

now my family never ever trust me anymore. they hate my attitude. they grounded me until my case is over. i need to go police station again on the 12 jan. wtf ! its nt my fault. if i kena court, mum will kill me. i just hate to be in this world. i feel like killing my self or run away from home. everybody around me hates me. they think im the one whu steal it. boyfriend siding my family. WHO WANNA LISTEN TO MY FCUKING HURT HEART ?!!! MY LIFE SUCKS. mum never let me go out with friends anymore. i've been grounded all the way. arghhhhh ! mate liya dah bengkak ! sial ah . i just to be in this world. ITS NOT MY FAULT. I KEEP REPEATING THIS SENTENCE. ITS NOT MY FAULT ! FAMILY/CUZIN LOOK DOWN ON ME.

thats why i prefer gg out with friend sial. i hate yuu guysss ! i wanna run away. help me people , help me.): i keep crying siaaa. till when i wanna continue this way ? *cry*
takecare.
ps: sorry allysugar, eqajepon & melsk tak dapat jumpa. ako rindu krg. tc ):

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149/sph pit.

Monday, December 28, 2009 Monday, December 28, 2009

149/SPH PIT WAS FUN. but theres alot alot of fights. its like couples fight ? wahhh ! & im inculding too. fcuk siaaa. im toning there with the best. not all are toning. but some. not all 149/sph people are turning up. maybe they are busy. especially boipekk! his werking & no tyme to enjoy with us. im so so glad that me & ayu make this plan for us. if not , we wont see each other lahh. theres outisder too & they're welcomed.(: we're not selfish okay .

let me tell yuu whus turn up kay ? catmeow, azhar degil, kiki telor, bayi , kecykstar , ayla sayuri, ayu shortie, hisham, fathul cousin, buddha, anto, chacha monster, rara gendut, jannah, fafa boncet, apit smallsmall, asep, danial, andy, apai sachek, jasman, fydy kecyk, ahkai, ihsantino, mickey , ein, yaya , ahboyy, syqin, kechiq, mia , allysugar,acap, kechyq sanchi, ejal, hougang peoples, ayu cousins & friends. alot right ? wow ! hahs. im very pleased. thnks for coming people. i love yuu all.

ton with ally, syqin, cat, boyfriend, ayu, hisham, ayla, chacha, ahkai, haikal, apit, apai, jasman, ihsan, buddha, anto, asep, mickey, ahboyy & many moreee. lazy to write all name. sad to say , azhar & kiki last minute need to go back home. sedeh purrr.

we bbq there together. mama marinate the chicken like so delicious. hehe ! thnks mama! & tk ku sangka jakung yang ako buat sedap. hahaha ! things happen very fast. asep fought with ayu. then me & boyfriend, ahkai w jana, acap w chacha, aly with those minahs, asep w ayla, boyfriend w ihsan. wahhh. theres alot fighting here and there siaaa. kecoh. ):

i drink with the best. bt before that i ask boyfriend this "yuu , i naq minum boleh ?" boyfriend say can. i was like happy and drink lorrrr ! then strt my headache. i cant control myself. talk crap with jannah i think? haha. i knw cat & syqin tk high2. boyfriend saw my condition like that , he get mad. but its his fault what , he let me drink then he mad. wahduhh. we fought. i kick hym then he kick my leg bone. saket siaoooo ! i break down and cry. melalak siaa liyaa. chacha, ayla, syqin, ally & cat helped me up. thnks bbygerls. i go in to the toilet, washed up my face & all. then boyfriend wanna say sorry. i hugged cat so so tight. scaryy siaaa. part tuh ako masy mabuk y'know. sial lah . dher peh minum tooo HIGH ! ishk ! hahs.

they wanna go swamp. i really wanna follow. ayla didnt let me. decided to walk bt tent. before that , theres some conflict gg on between nad & ally. i saw it from far. mate pun blur. haha ! & i heard ally say this "dorang tk kenal sape ally eh." wooo ! fierce uhh bbygerl ako ni. muke sweet taw , krg tatawu pangai dher aye ! the gerls try to calm ally down. we seat at the bench & gossiping. semer binget. haha. then my head strt to be okay. no more headache. i decided to go swamp with them while syqin & ayla walk back to the pit.

arrived, boyfriend keep repeating saying sorry. ako jalan dah tempang! musibot. i ignored hym. abeh abeh , he look down and keep quiet. i quite scared and run infront. i hold chacha hand. then we seat at the pondok. walk again. i decided to walk beside boyfriend, abeh dher menyilai . apa lagy . jerit uhh liya. i told cat about this. they heard and decided to go out from there. boyfriend kena sampuk paaa. seram sejuk ako. then we continue our journey. heh (:

go back to the pit. they wanna go maze. we lazy . i seat at the tent with boyfriend. talk things out with hym. pity hym & i feel sorry. then the gerls came & join us. chacha braing2 check2 dher pun tertdo. haha! oh yah ! i forget to say , we celebrate apit belated birthday too. emicakes dher peh delicious ! mcm nk lagy jeee. haha. boyfriend, my birthday next year, beli kan kek mcm gtu jugak kay ? hehe ! took teksi with cat & boyfriend around 5 plus. slack with boyfriend at punggol for a while. & yes , i enjoy every single second of it with yuu people. meet pretty soon. cau !

PS: KRG YANG LUM BAYAR TUH , GE BAYAR AYU LAH . KESIAN DHER PAKAI DUET DHER BANYAK2 SETAKAT NK BELI MAKAN UNTUK KRG. KALAU LIYA JADY AYU PUN LIYA BNGT SAKK. THNKS.