yesterday im going to the a.m.k police station with haikal and dinie to take my statement about the andy case. after statement , i thought i could just walk off from that fcuking place and just slack at common green with both of them. but i was wrong. the I.O STEVEN say this to us "im going to lock you up and call ur parents to bail you guys okay." i was shocked. its nt my fault u fcuking busted.!! ferst tyme i went in to the lockup place. tak rase seramm uhh , ako taq buat pape pe. i call my mum to bail me up. mum was like angry. tapi ako tak uat pape siaa. i seat alone inside the lockup place. i sing some song by my own. mcm budak sangau siaaa liya. after i call my mum , i cried. tears strt rolling. haikal saw it while dinie kena bail alr with his father. i walk inside back and seat down.

this police officer say;
"why yuu steal?"
and i answered
"i never steal lahh !" (with a high tone)
he say;
"then why yuu are here ?"
i reply
"hw i knw. im there what . urgh ! fcuk. whatever lah . just leave me alone !"
and he walk off. stresss siaaa liyaaa. then theres one malay police came and give me food with tea.
he say "nahh."
i say "ahhh."
he say "apa ahh?"
i say "ahh . thnkyou."
he say "kay , bagus."

sial ! mcm anjing sak kao uat ako. tkmu kerana kao police , ako kena hormat kao uhh siaaa. that food i put a side. musibot sial ! i keep thinking that i wanna get out from this fcuking place. ako kat dalam lockup dah tk tahan , apa lagy org yang kat dalam jail kan? melalak agaknyer.!

after parents bail me , they put all the blames on me. i cry non stop. yesterday , today and maybe tmrw. i cry and cry. i just cant take it anymore. its not even my fault siaa ! i was there. its andy who take that bag ! why must me who kena ? why andy pok my name ? i hate it !

now my family never ever trust me anymore. they hate my attitude. they grounded me until my case is over. i need to go police station again on the 12 jan. wtf ! its nt my fault. if i kena court, mum will kill me. i just hate to be in this world. i feel like killing my self or run away from home. everybody around me hates me. they think im the one whu steal it. boyfriend siding my family. WHO WANNA LISTEN TO MY FCUKING HURT HEART ?!!! MY LIFE SUCKS. mum never let me go out with friends anymore. i've been grounded all the way. arghhhhh ! mate liya dah bengkak ! sial ah . i just to be in this world. ITS NOT MY FAULT. I KEEP REPEATING THIS SENTENCE. ITS NOT MY FAULT ! FAMILY/CUZIN LOOK DOWN ON ME.

thats why i prefer gg out with friend sial. i hate yuu guysss ! i wanna run away. help me people , help me.): i keep crying siaaa. till when i wanna continue this way ? *cry*
takecare.
ps: sorry allysugar, eqajepon & melsk tak dapat jumpa. ako rindu krg. tc ):