hey you! yes you! do you remember when you ask for my number thru sabrina ? and at first i do not want to entertain you but i keep myself thinking , how far can i go if i keep missing my ex ? do you remember the ferst day we meet ? you sacrifise to come down to my place just for me ? when you step up from the bus , the first thing you do is to kiss my forehead ? do you remember that ? then we both took teksi to my school and we spent tyme together at grandlink ? after that , do you remember we had a small issues just about a taiti card and you very angry with me & im the one who say sorry ? you scared that i'll leave you when you throw tempered at me just because of small thing and do you remember what i say ? i say that im not gonna leave you . ): do you remember after all those fights , i was like sweating all over at the bustop and you covered up for me from the sun ? you wipe away my sweat ? ): the next day , do you remember we promise each other we gonna forget about our ex and move on together ? do you remember when you say this to me "dah lah bhy , tkmu pikiran kay ? ily tau." & i give you a smile ? ): do you remember when you ask me to be your girlfriend through the phone and your the sweetest ? do you remember when we promised each other we wont ever leave each other & your gonna be my last , im going to be your last ? DO YOU REMEMBER ALL THOSE THING ? )':

i know , at first , it was my fault. when im with you , i messed things up . but still , i love you so much. when i've forgotten my ex fully , i love you this much , you leave me speechless with tears all over my cheeks. do you know im hurt ? do you know i try to be strong ? do you know i dont want to cry for you this badly ? i told you that im sorry . i told you im going to change . i know you sacrifise for me alot , but i do sacrifise for you too . why i can give you chance ? why cant you give me chance ? is this what you promise you want me to be your last ? i try to change y know , just for you. just to make you happy day by day. but after we patch things up , just 1 day you've change & leave me. it hurts. ): yes , i miss your hug. i miss your warm hug. i miss the way you treat me & kiss me softly. i miss otf with you & those silly jokes we make. i miss when you call me piglet & i call you badak. i miss spend time with you. i miss us. i miss you. i miss everything. our "1 month" is round the corner and you left me speechless when actually i dont even know whats my fault ? how many tyme must i told you i try to change ? you dont give me chance to prove it to you. i deactivate my facebook for you , cause i love you this much. what i get in return ? you changed. why ? tell me why ? dont say it all because of me . it takes tyme for you to trust me & make your heart believe in me day by day. you're not even trying. you say you still love me , but then you say you dont understand how you feel . you make things complicated and at last you leave me behind. is this what you say your love is more bigger than me love you ? i dont want to cry you know , but i just dont want this to end for a stupid reason. but what to do kan ? i accept your decision. i just want to see you happy. if i never make you happy like how your ex-es did to you before, im sorry. but at least i've try my best. i sacrifise for you , you know. serious shit, i just cant believe we end up to be this way. i hope you're reading this. cause i want you to know how deep my heart hurt. if i wish i could celebrate our 1 month together , i'll make it wonderful. am i'm blind to love you & know you at first ? i want you to know , need me , i'll be there, i'll be your friend morning till night . dont ever scared to msg me first okay ? i'm always here for you , like last tyme. i hope those pictures we took make a memorable one for you . i miss you. )':

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