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1 year anniversary SUPPOSED.
Thursday, August 26, 2010 Thursday, August 26, 2010

people , this is just a wish supposed to be . not that i love him still or miss him so. i treat him , as a friend.

muhammad fairuz , happy 1 year anniversary supposed to be. i'm glad that i found you last time. we're friend's and turn out to be a lover. i can't say that i've regretted knowing you , indeed i'm so touched having you by my side. the first time i knew you till now, i know you're a great caring guy but most of the time, you're superb sensitive + ego that i hate so much about you. please change to be a better guy in future. even we broke up already, i still treat you as a friend. find a true girlfriend for you one day okay ? i'll support you.

i still remember the sweet moment's when i'm yours but now no more. accept the fact okay fydy ? and i still remember the sour time when you called me names and i break down crying as i don't think i can make you happy. and when the shocking part you contacting my own friend without me knowing . it's hurt me because i don't ever think that you are a guy who would busted me in the end. you told me you love only me and i trust you , but you the one who stab me from the back and keep on contacting my friend. every time we fought , you call her at night & i still remember when you told me you wanted to sleep as you were very tired and at that point of time, it was the first time you wanted to put down the phone. it was only 10pm plus and i get to know you call her , my own friend.

it hurts you know and i don't want to let you go, but why should i still holding on the r/s when you busted me ? please don't blame me when i'm moving on and leave you behind cause this feeling is not the same. yes, i'm not blaming you everything when you go contact her. it's her fault's too. but think back , why you are so mean contacting her behind my back ? don't you ever think how i feel when i get to know it sooner or later ?

i don't want to flashback the sour memories but i'm just still shocking when i get to know it. IF ONLY you wont do this to me, we could still celebrating our 1 year anniversary with you. such a waste right fydy ? you don't even care about our r/s from the start. then i've realise, guy's get tired too easily over girls huh ? fydy , for all you know , i swear this to god , when i'm with you , i don't even contact other guy's. i'm sincere loving you & i take care of your feeling's. i ignored every single message's when guy's wanted to know me more & etc. i ignore it & report strength to you but what you did to me ? such a waste, very such a waste fydy.

it's okay that we broke up in the end after all being with you . some times i think it wasn't right. i believing in you last time , i gave everything you wanted , but you threw it away. this time , i'm got to be okay without you. some times i didn't even know what kind of person you were. why on earth were you like this to me & made me cry ? aren't you even sorry ? don't you even care ?

i don't want to nag everything here but i hope you move on with your life and forget about me as i'm someone girlfriend and i treasure him so much. i hope you understand. you're still my friend and NO ONE could ever change that . come and turn on me when you have anything to share alright ? forget all the misunderstanding , fight's and etc last week's as i'm sick and tired to face problem's after problem's.

so fydy , you are a sweet guy . thanks for always been there when i need you. you gonna have my back. thankyou for the msg yesterday night . i list it down.
And i can’t believe i post this. maybe this is a good thing. maybe this is step one from moving on from this part of my past.

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