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Monday, March 22, 2010 Monday, March 22, 2010
i meet my D.M.F babygerls , ayushortie,yaya scandal, lisa jepoon & ayla sayuri.
meet boyfriend, azhar, zahari , haikal , danial & hakiki too.
syqin should slack with us but she didnt turn up nor msged me so its okay.
you know why my post today moody ? cos i dun have a mood to post but i wanna let out my feelings.
after i step into my house, mum saw my red swollen eyes & the ferst thing she ask was;
mama- liya kao nanges eh ?
me- tk lah. mate masuk habuk. * with gagap voice*
mama- jangan typu mama. asl?
me- tkder pape *fake smile*
mama- kao pk mama beranak kan kao smlm ?
me- *sit beside mama & burst out crying* mamaaa... adeq gdh ngan fydy.
mama- kenapa pulak?
me- mama imagine lah .. kalau mama jady adeq kan , mama setakat tompang kawan lelaki mama motorcycle tak masuk 5 minit dher dah mengamuk ? adeq setakat tompang sey. adeq pegang belakang baju dher, bukan adeq rabe dher. kalau mama tompang ayah pun mama kena balance diri mama so that mama tk jatuh tergolek kan ? *cry*
mama- laaaa, setakat gtu dah nanges gini ke?
me- unfair. *cry* abeh dher nk ungkit yang adeq tk layan dher tady. mcm mana nk layan kalau ada kawan irritating dher tuu. *cry*
mama-sudah lah liya. ni semua cinta monyet jek. dulu mama remaje lelaki jerit mama jerit balek. buat ape nk takut ngan lelaki ni semua? semua nyer same. tkmu nanges untuk lelaki deqq, tk guna.
me-dah lah , nk mandy.
while i bathing, i cry again, inside my room , i cry alot more.
salah ke liyaa tompang kawan liya snirik ? liya kenal dher lebeh lame dary liya kenal matey liya snirik. liya dah terang terang blg dher, thers not need to be jealous of cos his your friend & mine too. he knw im attached to you & he loves other gerl too. salah ke ? asl kao kena cemburu buta huh? ako tk faham. if yuu think its my fault, i told you in the ferst place, im sorry. but did yuu even care ? you heck care me & keep playing your guitars. pasal kao bracelet zahari beli kan ako pecah. semua pasal kao. ape lagy? ako benci kao. ako dah tatawu ape lagy nk uat lepas ni. kao kate ako penting kan diri ako & tak ingt diri kao. kalau ako tk ingt, ako tk akan ajak kao kuwa selalu. ako dah blg kao , ako tk tunggu kao pasal dher kan ? dher irrits ako pe, what part of my answer yuu dont understand.? kao nk ako repeat and repeat that i & hym just a friend. tuu pun kao dah tawu pe. kao asl ? dtg bulan ? sampai saat ni , ako sabar/tahan ngan pangai kao sebab ako tknk sia sia kan apa yang selama ni kite pernah lalui. kao ada pk ? kao sensitif, kao ego, bukan ako. ako cuma seorang wanita yang punya perasaan. i just burst out crying infront of you. kao pk ako robot ? sesuka haty kao uat ? duu yuu knw it hurt's ? kao carik pasal nan kat bawah blok ako. kao pk mak bapak ako tk ngar ? ape kao nk ? ako dah ckp sory , kao tk ngar. then up to you.
TYME OFF, FROM TODAY. our 7months are just 4 more days & we keep fighting & have conflicts. till when ? sampai kao puas ? puas ngan ape kao dapat ? gtuuu ? should i just stop this r/s and move on ? dengan izin allah , kite ngk mcm mana. amin. ingt, tyme off kay . even my bbygerls told me to answer your phone when yuu call. to explain things up , but do yuu ever listen ? forget it.
thnks lisa, ayu , ayla & yaya for being there just now!
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