it hurts,fought with you like everyday. is my attitude sucks for you ? if yes , tell me. then i will change. i knw i hurt you alot. i make you damn angry. but do you ever think, whatever i do still i sincere with only you ? do you see my change ? i never cntct guys, i never meet guys , i never flirt with guys, i never do anything like last tyme. but when i ask you "do you saw me changing to be a better gerlfriend ?" but you reply "noo. you are the same. becoming a worse gerlfriend." it hurts yknow. even at tymes i feel like shouting infront of you. but i dun feel like to. i feel like blogging but yet i wrote it in my diary & lets my feelings out. i dun want you to know. do you ever think about it ?

at tymes i try to claim myself down & let your feelings out but whenever you hurt me with your words that i dont even do, u trying to show me that you never trust me as your gerlfriend. than why you still want me to be your gerlfriend? how could we last if you dont understand me & i dont understand you? your ego sucks lah. i hang up the phone & break down crying, EVERYTYME yeah. do you knw that ?

you say you sacrifise alot for me,same goes to me. i sacrifise my tyme for you! whenever you want me to be there, i'll be there. but whenever i want you to be there, were you be there for me ? you give me shit excuses, still i trust you & apologised. now tell me , you or me who hurts the most ?

& one more thing i wanna claim, issit wrong to miss MY OWN EX? i never say out loud to you about hym. i never open a topic about hym when i otp with you. i never say "i miss hym" everysingle day. i never flirt around with hym when i slack with hym. i never say that "sayang2 , iu iu" word when i chat/talk with hym. i never did all that. but you say i have affair with hym. why ? his your friend, & i treat hym my friend too. i repeat it again. issit wrong to miss an ex ? just an ex ? i knw i wont be with hym anymore. dont you understand ? pleaseeeeee , understand me . ): when you say you miss ( _ _ _ i ) , i never say a single word. i never stop you to meet/contacting her. but me ? you make me like a babi kena kurung dalam penjara. aduhhh! saket nyer hatyku!!

we've been 6 months gg 7 months, still , you never trust me as your girlfriend ? im hurt. ):