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Thursday, October 15, 2009 Thursday, October 15, 2009
Love Story, true life story . from syqinstarr (my adeqangkat tersyg)
The first day I've get to know you , I remembered , it was five years back then . The year that I've started my first crush , my first love . Things have gotten in my mind . The days we spent with our friends . The day we play catching as always during our primary school days .
The first day I've get to know you , I remembered , it was five years back then . The year that I've started my first crush , my first love . Things have gotten in my mind . The days we spent with our friends . The day we play catching as always during our primary school days .
You always the one that make my hearts go boom , and the reason why I always smile , it is becaue of you . Things change , when suddenly , you started to fall in love with a girl , by the name of Puteri . I was effingly jealous when I heard of it . But , that doesn't stop me from loving you . As time pass by , I can't stop thinking of you . My friend fall in love with you and I let it go . Coz I know , I won't get you . Coz I know I'm not that good enough for you . I've always thought that you will reply my love with sincere . With full of your hearts . When years have pass and we are primary six , you move out from Pasir Ris , you are going some where , the place which is far for me to let go of my feelings . I missed you a lot and I just can't bear to see you go . You may seem of all those years I never good to guys , I never even want a boyfriend , because I don't think of one other than you . You are the first guy that makes me fall in love . The last time I saw you when you wanna take your report book . I saw you but I didn't call your name . As I don't wish to say goodbye . Goodbye is a very harsh word for me . So I walk the other way round . I don't wanna you to see my cry . Yes , I cried and I know you don't know and I know you wouldn't have care about me . Come on , who am I for you to think of me right ?
Precisely , from there , I walked away , I just can't bear to see you go but I have to accept it . From then on , my life change . Secondary life has started . I've change to Pasir Ris Secondary School . Things happening there are not the same as primary life . I started to hate that school . I've becoming a havoc girl . I started to pierce here and there . I've started smoking . I've started my bad attitude . I've become more rebelling . So then on , until I've turn to secondary two . The stories began again . The month of Hari Raya is here and her friend by the name of Aisyah , knows where you stay . Therefore , we agreed to go to your house that day . Then , Aisyah left a note with numbers on it . You called , and Fizah answered . We talk and talk , and then she pass the phone to me . Asking you to guess my voice and yes , you remember my voice, you remember me . I was blush . Farah knows that I love you and I effingly missed you .
From that day , we contact each other . We text each other and my love is increasing and I get to let go of me missing you so much . Times pases and suddenly we get together , on 061008 . That day , I will always remember for my memory . But then you hurt me , you hurt me a lot . You left me alone in the darkness . I cried and I fall sick . But still , I didn't stop loving you . Coz you change me from a bad person to a good one . You make me realise everything . Then you break me into pieces , and I started to change back . I've started piercing here and there again . I've started sniffing gums and started to smoke again . I nearly took a pen knife and I wanna slash myself but , when I think back , it doesn't give me anything I want eventhough I slash myself .
So then , you contact me when I'm attached with someone . You told me you aren't attached and I felt totally sorry . Few days later I broke up , why ? Because I love you and I will do anything to show that I love you . You were so angry at me and I hae to accept it . Then , one day , someone tag me , saying if you are my ex , and I say yes you were my ex . Then from there , I found out that you are attached . You broke my heart for the second time . I text you , and I cried . I lied to you that I'm not even hurt but actually I am . So you go on with your life and I too , but the truth is , I can't even forget you . I've tried to find a guy like you but I failed . So , I give up . Then the month of Hari Raya for 2009 . You contact me again . You know how happy I am that you text me again ?? I guess not . Sigh . We meet again on 071009 for Hari Raya . 081009 we meet again , only you and me and I swear to GOD that I missed you so much .
But something suddenly strikes into my mind . I don't want to lose you for another time . You are holding two hearts at one time . You love us both but I think I'm too selfish . I don't want be th girl as known as the girl who snatch a guy away . I don't . I really don't . So let me be the one hurt . I don't want you or her to be hurt . So I have to let you go . We will meet again one day if we have fate between us . Maybe I will see you wearing a suit with her wearing a wedding dress , cutting the cake together and live happily ever after . Will see what happens in future ok .
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